Eke Kornnechem Karonn...

Eke Kornnechem Karonn...
- Jose Salvador Fernandes

Iskolantlo dusrea vorgacho dekhavo. Vorgant tis xikpi. Itlea-i zannam modlea Jeronak ubo korun xikovpinnin obheasache babtint kitlexech proxn kele. Punn tache lagim ek-ui proxnak zap diunk ghoddunk na. Tea khatir, xikoupinnin taka mar, mar, boroch marlo. Tea maran Jeronacho kolsanvant mutpacho vell zalo. Uprant, xikovpinnin taka obheasachem pustok apleaxim haddunk formaylem. Tannem tem tichexim vhelem.
"Pustokacher 'petrol' vharoylea. Pustokak 'petrol'-icho vas marta." Vorgantlea sogott xikpeank dista te toren pustok aple chimttent dhorun Jeronak hinnsaupache nodrentlean xikoupinn uloyli. Fuddem, tinnem Jeronak proxn kelo:
'Pustokacher 'petrol' kiteak vharoylea? Pustokak kollomb (rust) yena zaunk pustokacher 'petrol' ghalea kay kitem ?'
Jeron tamboddea dolleamni ogich ravlo. To zap dina to polleun ani na xikil'leachem nimit gheun, xikovpinn taka boddien marit ravli. Itlo marlo, Jeronache kuddir ek-ek boddi mezunk melltali. Tea uprant tinnem taka vorgant bosunk-ui diunk na. "Bapayk gheun ailea xivay tum porot vorgant bhitor sorum naka," osli soja diun tinnem Jeronak vorgantlo bhair ghalo. Ani Jeron....
Kal sanjer avoyn bhattkaralem bhat girnnir vhel'lem. Aplea adara khatir tinnem Jeronak-ui aplea vangdda vhel'lo. Bhat chodd aslem dekhun, ghora portonk-ui boroch uxir zal'lo. Attank yeun, ratik xita khatir koddi nasli dekhun, avoyn pejek adon dovorlem. Ani ratir pez jevun zatoch, Jeron xikunk boslolo. Xikpachi avostha nasli, torui to boroch yotn korun xiktalo. Avoy umbrear bosun ghorabeacher ailelem.sonkoxtt yevjitali. Itlean, ordkuttim podam.... modinch galleo-fosteo marit 'to' ailo. 'To' mhollear Jeronacho bapui.
Sodanche poros to az odik pieyl'lo. Bhuimkamp zal'le vori to boroch haltalo-dholtalo. Avoy umbreaveli uttun bhitor geli. 'To' aplo tol (balance) samballit bhitor sorlo. Ghorkarn'nik vaddunk sanglem ani tinnem pejechi vattli haddun tachea hatant dili. Ordi angar, ordi zom'nir vharoit tannem pejek ghontt marlo, ani uprant gallliancho xinvor korit ti vattli urlele peje soit ghorkarn'nicher xevttili. Tinnem ti hikmotin chukoyli. Uprant tichexim vochun, tika oxi-toxi borich zoddpayli... pejek bodlek xit kiteak korunk na mhonnot tika mar-farayli.... Jeron, oxe poristhitint bhiyeun apleachich gulli korun ogi aslo….. toch tache nodrek zollkholo.... taka-i don galleo marit tachexim gelo.... tachea hatantlem forforit tachem pustok oddun zom'nir xevttilem ani uprant mezavelo to divo kaddun nettan zom'nir xevttilo.... divo poddtanach poddlo pustokacher.... pustok 'petrol'-an bhorlem.
Protek mon'xache vagnnukek karonn asa. Dor eka mon'xache dor eke kornnek-ui itihas asa. Konnak-ui ami chor mhunn vollkhotanv zalear, tachea tea chorponnache vrut'ti (attitude) fattlean koslo tori itihas asunk zay. Karonn nastana to chor zaunk xokona. Konnakui tor ami ek 'tiatrist' mhunn vollkhotanv, zalear toso to tiatrist mhunn ghollpak tachea fattlean koslem tori karonn asunk zay. To zolmotanach tiatrist mhunn zolmunk xokona. Konnem-i tor atmghat (suicide) kelo zalear, tache-i fattlean ek vo eka poros odik karonnam asum yetat. Ani kitlexech pavtti atmghat korpi aple te kornnechem karonn-ui boroun dovortay. Jeronan tea disak aplem xikop korunk nam. Tache-i fattlean ek itihas asa; taka-i ek karonn asa.
Omkoch monis chor. Punn to chor kiteak? Omkeach mon'xan jiv dilo. Punn kitea khatir? Omkeanuch oxem kelem, toxem kelem. Punn konn karonna khatir? Somazant ghoddtele ek-ek kornne fattlean aslelea itihasacher vo karonnacher amchem mon, lokx vochona. Omkech kornnechem pall-mull kitem-kat hacher amchem dhean vochona. Khorem mhollear ami toem tem lokx ghalpacho jivak tras ghenanv. Te bodlek, omkeanuch omkem kelem ti ghoddnni gheun ami tacher amchem naka axil'lem ani pallam-mullam naxil'lem bhaxeo (commentary) kortat... Te ghoddnnek matui lagu zaina toslem karonn zulloupacho ami proyotn kortanv. Ani tednach ek-dogam modim hacheo-tacheo gorje bhaileo gozali suru zatat... khobro-kenddnneo kortanv. Punn toxem polleunk gelear amkam dusreancheo gozali.... khobro.... kenddneo korpacho kosloch hok'k na.... odhikar nam.
Kuddicho dhondo kortele ostorek ami 'prostitute' mhunn bott dakounk toyar asanv, punn tika tea naikinnponnachea dhondeantli vattaunk ani tiche ghorche poristhiti khatir tika koslem tori, tichea ghorabeachem udarposonn zaupi kam' sodun diupacho ami khottpott korinanv. Pondra vorsanchem cheddum bhikek boslam zalear ami taka bhik ghalunk toyar asanv, punn tem kiteak bhikek boslam tem zannun gheunk ani tantuntlean taka suttounk amche lagim ghoddta zalear-ui ami amchem pavl ubarunk toyar asonanv. Ami ekamekak somzun ghenanv, ani toso khottpott-ui korinanv. Punn kel'lem zalear khorelem monisponn jogant vospachem. Konn karonna khatir monis kosle poristhitir pavta hem-ui gomun yeupachem ani noxtteo gozali- khobro korun dusreanchem jivit anik-ui zodd korpachem unnem zatelem aslem. Omkeach mon'xache kornnechem promannik karonn somzopachi ekuch pavtt ami khottpott kel'li zalear... Jeronan aplo obheas kiteak korunk na, hem te xikovpinnin il'lo thokos gheun somzopacho proyotn kel'lo zalear....

5/4/2008

(c) Prof. Jose Salvador Fernandes
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