Saturday, July 26, 2008

Duxtt Zon'var! Mon'xantlem!

Duxtt Zon'var! Mon'xantlem!

Jose Salvador Fernandes



Pirayechea 24vea vorsant tacho-mhozo sombond zull'lo. Tednachean dog-ui ixtt zale. Hech ixttagotichea bandpasan to amger, hanv tanger yeunk-vochunk lagle. "Family friends" zale.

Hea mhojea ixttak ek bhoinn asa. Sov mhoine fattim tichem logn zalam. Tichea lognachea dobajea disa, mhaka udok legit piyeunk vell naslo. Torui, vellant vell kaddun, mhojea ghorcheam vangdda hanv tichea lognak hajir zal'lom. Ani tichea tea lognachea poileach disa, 'tum tacho ani to tuzo fuddar sukhi korunk pavum, hech mhoje anvdde' oxea utramni hanvem tika 'wish' kel'li tacho mhaka ghott ugddas asa.

Halinch Moddganvam gel'lom. 'Appointment' aslo ek. Tharailolea vella khub adim pavlom mhonnlem, ani 'chol ek chav gheum-ia' oxem mhonnint 'Bombay Cafe'-nt bhitor sorlom. Veittorak chav haddunk sanglem ani hatant aslolo 'paper' ugddun vachunk survat kortanch, mhojeach mezar, mhojea samkar boslolea cheddvacher mhoji nodor poddli. Tinnem mhaka 'hello' mhonnlem. Barik polle zalear konn? Sov mhoine adim kazar zaleli mhojea ixttachi bhoinn! Tichea kazara uprant aiz ti mhaka poilech pavtt melltali. Vollkhichea konnem-i poilech nodren polleli zalear, ti vollkhunk ievchi nasli titli mukhamollan bodol'loli. Borich bagun gel'li. Kazara uprant hichi bholaiki bigoddli zaum-ie, oso tichea mukhamollar anik ek nodor marun hanvem sumar kaddlo. 'Magir, koxem chol'lam tumchem kazari jivit?' Itlench vicharil'lem mat... Tichea mukhamollacho ronguch bodol'lo.... Ti khoim tori sanddlolea vori lagli.... kitlosoch vell ti uloilch na. Aplea hatant ord bhorlolo koficho glas ghott dhorun, ani aplech vontt chabun ti apleakuch domaunk sodi. Ogich vicharlo mure hika ho prosn, oxem monant mhonnlem. Tednam mhoje mhakach vaitt dislem. Itlem mhonnosor, veittor ievn mhojea fuddeant chavecho glas dovrun koddsorlo. Tiche kodde porot gozal korunk hanv utram ievzunk laglom. Oxe prokrient astana, tinnem aplea monacho band foddlo -

"... Tum amcho 'family friend'... bhavacho ixtt... tantuntlea tantum dadlo monis. Dekhunuch mhojea kazari jivitantli gozal sangtam tuka. Duddu farik korun kuddi dhondeache bazarantle ostorexim nhidpi dadlo legit, itlea murkhponnan tiche kuddiche bhognnar korcho na. Protek rati, apnnak konn tori marunk ietolea porim mhoje kuddir zhuddon ietalo, ani kuddichem dhadosponn bhogche khatir mhojea jivachi beporva korun, ran'votti zon'varam poros-ui paxtt avtikayen vagtalo. To itlea murkhponnan bhog gheta mhonnosor, mhozo jiv ordo mel'lo zatalo. Kazar zavn attuch disamni mhaka, fuddarak ratich ievchi nhoi oxem dislem. Punn mhoje khuxe add, ratichi ghovachi murkhponnachi vagnnuk-ui chukounk vattui meklli nasli. Kazarak pondra dis zatoch, sollavea disa hanvem taka tachi ratichi vagnnuk bodlunk sanglem. Punn te ani fuddlea-i ratink koslench boreponn ailem na. Ailole rati tachem tem ran'vottponn anik sonsunk nozo zatoch, mhojem mon taka vittelem... tacho dves korunk laglem. Dekhun, kazarak don mhoine bhorche poilinch hanvem taka sanglem: "Mhaka, tujea vangdda tuji potinn mhunn jiyevpachi khuxi nam. Tachea mukhamollak pollelear, mhojem sangnnem tacher kosloch probhav-ui korina na mhunn distalem. Hanvem mhojeo gorjecheo vostu ghetleo, taka ani tachea ghorak fatt korun..." Tinnem aplea hatant axil'lea kofichea kopak tondd lavun sogli ofi sompoili.

"Sodeak hanv Mobrar eka bongleant sirvidorachi chakri kortam. Goroz to bazar vhorunk mhonnun Moddganvam ailolim." Uprant aple ghoddialir nodor marun tinnem mhozo nirop ghetlo.

Tichea tonddantlean aikol'le tichech kazari jivitache ghoddnnecher mhozo kitlosoch vell visvasuch bosona zalo. Ani itlo vell apli khoboruch korunk na mhunn nivun thondd zal'le chayecho glas tonddak laitoch, tea glasant mhaka halinch, mhojeach ganvant aikol'le ghoddnneantlea bapui-dhuvechea mukhamollancho bhas zalo.

Avoi-bapaichi eklich dhuv. Ekloch put. Put tarvar asta. 18 voranchi dhuv kolej xikta. Char vorsam fattim, kankrachi pidda zavn avoi ontorli. Ghorant urlim fokot bapui ani dhuv. Put tarvar nokrek lagot porian bapian aplem tarvottiponn soddun dil'lem. Potik potinn ani dhuvek avoi naslolea ghorant, aple dhuvechem tornneponn bapaichea dolleant bhorunk laglem. Ani eke durdoivi rati, aplea bhitorlea zon'varacho gulam' zavn, bapain aplech dhuvecher....

Mon'xak 'rational animal' mhonntat. Tache 'rationality'-ikuch lagun to heram zon'varam poros vegllo-agllo tharta. Punn tache bhitorlem zon'var apli 'rationality' visorta tendam, monis khorea orthan zon'var zata. Ekdom apli 'rationality' naslolea zon'varanchea panvddear ietoch, to koso nachot-vagot hacho sumar kaddunk zaina. Tache te obhodr (wicked) vagnnuken to bolatkari zaum ieta... khuni zaum ieta... tantuntlean to somazache nodren apleakuch bhairaita... apleach khas mon'xam kodde aslole bore sombond tunttoun uddoita.

Mon'xachi 'rationality' sanddta vo to apunn zaun ti visorta tednam, mon'xache bhitor aslolem tem zon'var kitlem mhunnon duxtt asta nhoi? Nigtench logn zal'lea zoddpeak legit ekameka pasun pois korta mhonnlear kitem?

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